Just come back from Malacca!!

Today almost the whole day I am in Malacca..
WHY??
Because today is my Grandpa 1st death aniversary..
So as his good granddaughter.. I am required to go back and pray..

Actually, I thought of not going back to stay home and study for my next paper..
Which is on the following tuesday.. Means its the day after tomorrow..
But, I scared I will think of someone and something..
So, I decided to follow my parents back to Malacca..

Since last friday yum cha, I never sms him again..
Because I dun feel like sms him..
The way he treat me is even worse than a friend.. He promise to treat me as his sister..
Maybe that is the way he want me to forget about the feelings..

If that is his way, I think he get it..
I think I really loss up my feelings..
I no longer treat him as my love one..
He is just my friend.. A normal one..

Last friday his attitude made me loss my feels..
Even made me hate him.. but i dun want to..
I tried to control myself..
I told myself, he is now just my brother..
Whatever he is doing, not my business..
And I have no power to control him..

I am not yet 100% cured..
I think most of all is 30% cured..
I need someone or something to distract me from him..
I want my attention to put on other things..

Someone or something please help me out..
I need a new time table in my life..